CANOT THINK!!!!!!!!!
it will spoilt every good memory between US!!!!!

why girls always like tat..
after they are in relationship with somemore..
they will become emo, more expectation and selfish..
no matter how hard they try..they just canot control it...
dislike tat feeling...
but i know...they always love that person so much which make them canot control themselves..

he.. appear in my life..
gives me all the cares, love..

as time goes on....
i just realize..
he is not very special..
he doesn't really know my heart..
he canot catch up what i think..
he cant always be with me..
he is not as perfect as i tin he is..
he cant really give me what i wan..

sometimes...i was disappointed with that...

but....
not matter how imperfect he is...
i wouldn't complain it...
i will accept how he is no matter how many times he disappoint me..
because...he had already took a big portion in my heart which nothing can be replaced..


i just keep blaming myself why expect so much from him...
actually..i know..i just wan him....

today...i feel so disappointed..
everything is out of my control..
i always try my best to keep everything in the best way..
but i fail..
1st time..i feel i cant do anything to save it..
that night..i tin of i can trust them..dun under estimate their ability..they can do out of a box..
but..when the sun raise..i just realize...that's only my dream..
dream can never be the real...
so..
wat i can do....
is just to...
GIVE UP....

RISK
more than others think is safe,
CARE
more than others think is wise,
DREAM
more than others think is practical,
EXPECT
more than others think is possible.

i dono i can be like this how long....

This is my new blog..
i had use BIRDIE~~~as my blog template...
damn cute neh(not include penguin)~~~~
webiste is :www.babieharukodw.blogspot.com
For now, there is still quite empty..
will try to upload some drawings as soon as possible..
hehe....

hehe....home made sushi by........ME!!!!~~~

yummy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

hehe...new desgin is out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Say bye to the old one..
Happy New Year~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i got so many tin to post here..but then..i just too lazy to do that..=.=....

for a long time i didnt post anytin to my blog..
today is christmas day..
wish everyone merry christmas..

for this year..i celebrate christmas alone because of the short sem and also my aunt's whole family go to my hometown, which is sarikei.

haiz...left me alone here..

during this "special" day, i hang out alone in subang parade and eat sushi king.
after that, i try to search sometin to "ben dan", but i fail to do tat..
notin can catch my 1st impression....

on the way going to subang parade..
my mind turn back to 1st time i celebrated christmas with "him"..
which is 4 years ago..
i still remember at that time...i got no experience in searching a present for "him"..
lastly...i use my favorite hello kitty letter paper( somemore got apple smell when u skretch it) , one christmas card and wrote down the words that hide inside my heart on that paper..
when i passed the card to him, his face like no emotion and asked me what is tat...=.=l..........
hehe........
whatever....it past edi.........................


for this year..my "ben dan" is not around ..hehe..no choice lo...
hope that lastly i can make sometin nice for that "ben dan"...
mk u~~~~

lastly...
holiday is coming..
wat should i do is just..
relax...relax..RELAX..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yo~~~!!!
no rendering anymore~~~~~
i hate 3d max!!!!!

this is 1st time i feel that..
no matter how much effort i put in..
i just didn't recognize by everyone..

i just dislike my studio..
dislike i dono wat to do..
dislike i am blur..
dislike lecturer think i never spend time on my work...
dislike lecturer never listen to my idea..
dislike lecturer keep asking me follow wat he like..
dislike i need to do what i dislike..
dislike who i am now....

我：你最近在想什么啊？
自己：我不太清除。。
我：为什么？
自己：我不知道。
我：你还好吧？
自己：有东西压着我的心。。
我：什么东西啊？
自己：是一块布。。
我：哦？
自己：这块布包住了我内心的己。。我已经看不透，也摸不着它了。。。。

hehee....Memorial walk assignment stop at this stage edi..
Below is my panel and model..
not very nice but acceptable la..
cox i had tried my best ,so i tin this is the best ...
concept just expressed by one piece of paper..
hehe....might have alot of people tot tat this is too simple and lame..
but ...the meaning hidden under the surface reveal silently...

This model is from one of my classmate, YP.. the best model i had seen from the beginning until now..

Other models from my classmate:

Below are the panels from my classmate: